Day 24

 Hello everyone and before beginning with anything I know that I wrote a very abnormal rant yesterday which made no sense but I have no specific reason why I did so. Maybe it was all my thoughts just coming out so that I could feel good. Well after I completed writing the blog yesterday I felt really upset so I went upstairs on the roof and stared at the stars and I was so scared that I literally just cried my heart out and I don't even know why. I just sat there alone under the sky feeling so sad and scared. I prayed to God to just be with me because I didn't want to feel that way. After crying a lot and letting all my emotions out I decided to do something because I just cannot be like that. Seeing yourself so stressed and worried makes you realize that what are we even doing. 

I just immediately thought of a simple plan. I came back to my room made a list of my remaining work, list of work I want to do and my distractions and started working on the first thing which needed my most attention. I somehow engaged myself in something and honestly seeing myself just trying made me feel better. Now I know only two things will happen either I can just give up or I can try. Honestly the whole world seems against me right now but let's just face it. What is the worse that can happen. I might end up messing more which I am very used to and even if the worst of worst happens I will face it. Either I will cry more or I will be embarrassed but at least I will try. Even if I am the slowest in doing anything I would be happy that I finished it.

I didn't even knew what I was gonna write today and this old quote of mine just came to my head and I am just posting it. I did started working today and it is going good. It is slow but good and I am just happy that I started.

I will surely come up with great ideas for the blog and I will see you tomorrow and I am 6 minutes late but I guess it is okay.

xoxo Vanshi💜